Smiles.

Is similing a true manifestation of happiness? Ironic as it can be, I think likewise. Yes, it is, to a very large extent, but dare you say that you never hid your feelings so deep before?

Somehow, people ofthen smile in times, they never felt like smiling.

In times, they instinctively knew that they'll be happier off not smiling.

But how many atimes had your confidate assured you, "Smile, and all would be fine. You'll definitely be happier."

All that surfaced from that goodwill of that special one, might just be another reason to wallow about.

Sometimes, its ironically easy to smile when you're sad, but I think, people would be better expressing what they feel. Yes, it would cause disappointment among your surroundings, but how joyful would your best friends be if they knew you were smiling for the sake of saving them from the trouble to be affected by your dismay about something, and faking your happiness for this case?

I wish that all could be what they want to be, and be happy being so. :)

CIP 4

Was at Marina Square that day, and saw something at the pipes, which I felt that would be very appropriate for "my Dark Site".

Here is it! :)















I was thinking for it to be the background of the site.

Well, more to come! :)

are you over it?

Have you ever told yourself that you really need to give something up?
Like something you really want (probably need for that moment) but you can't exactly have it?
Sometimes, we keep telling ourselves (or friends around us) that we (they) really need to forget all this crap and live on life, because life's not going to pause for you, neither would Earth stop spinning for the moment. Then we(they) start to avoid any contact with the object, hoping that the phrase "out of sight, out of mind" works well for them. Well, kinda, it usually does, especially when you make yourself so busy that you don't even have time to think about it in the first place.

But too many times, that something that you thought you had given up on, placed behind... appears in your face and hey, you realised at a snap.

You're not over it.

CIP 3

Tried out Macromedia Flash finally! Its not that easy though :(

But its definitely worth the trouble.

Saw another poster on my way home, decided to change my flash! :)

The poster.

hmmm.

In no particular order, list down :three people you talk to online,four people you see at school, two teachers, three people you love going out with & three people in your sms inbox.

1. cheryl poh
2. tan quing jue
3. terence wah
4. jane toh
5. melvin lim
6. judette teo
7. clarence foo
8. joanna zhan
9. Mrs Winter
10. Miss Tan (mdm!)
11. denise chong
12. chian yu chern
13. jennifer low
14. ethan sia
15. marvin kang

So what do you think of number4?

Haha, the ultimate SLACKER. From the ideas she gave for CATS, I find it hard to even find someone who is lazier than her! LOL, she just got online! :X

How would you feel if number4 slapped you on your face?

Hmmm, I don't know. But I do know that she likes to punch me, ALOT. Maybe I'll hit her hand away?

How nice is number6?

HAHA, JUDE! :) My bestiee. Nice? 10/10? She's always caring, just that she's probably perpetually blur, but still, besttt! :) Good luck on everything girl!

On a scale of 1-10, rate how good looking number5 is.

Melvin! WOOOOO. 8/10!

Will you ever fall for number 11?

Denise Chong? Lol, maybe? Like she's sooooo cute *coughnotcough*! hahahs. Just met her like in the food court yesterday lah.

Honestly, if number8 met with an accident what would you do?

Hmmm, I will be super afraid and rush to the hospital? Like she's soooo fragile and she's my best friend too! (Jo, more friendster profiles? :X)

What sports would you play with number 12?

CYC plays... sports? I don't know, not yet played, maybe Table Tennis one day? Or for the moment, a thigh as a pillow and see how long you last? (no link. :X)

What if number1 got a boyfriend?

Lol, she HAS a boyfriend to start with? :)

Do you hate number 9?

How could I? I looooove this teacher! You rock Mrs Winter! (Though I doubt she'll get to read this) But if you really happen to, really miss your History tutorials! Though you've left CJ, hope to bump into you in town sometime! :)

How much do you like number 2?

Haha, I don't know. Like we're the gh3y partners in class in Semester 1? To think of it, all the guys in my class are considered gh3ys. hahas. :) Those days....

Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?

Doubt so, Clarence is attached with Catherine in any case, right? hahas. :)

Would 14 kill you one day?

YES, Ethan will murder me if I do happen to screw up in any more Soul Calibur tournaments, if there is any that we would be taking part in. :(

Who do you like more? 3 or 10?

OMG. For goodness sake, 10. At least she's a female! Plus she's pretty, cute, athlethic.... (goes on and on...) but Wah is cool toooo! :D

Get five people to do this thing:

If anyone does read my blog in the first place? =\

pivotal point.

If I had to say, this would be the pivotal point of my life. Somehow. So much is changing, and I'm very much accepting, for a weird reason. The uncertainity in life is also very much favoured in this point of time, like I'm always someone who screams for closure. But I believe in the phrase,

"The only constant in the world, is change."

Somehow, somewhat, I'm really starting to accept it. Well, that's life I guess.

So what exactly changed?
1)Just woke up at 2.30pm
2)With friends on Christmas
3)Maroon hair
4)New stationary?
5)Getting new pencilcase

Hmmm, not that much what. =\ But I guess its not the quantity of counts, its the quality of somethings that really matters.

hope fool.

Was on the bus, when I saw this advert. It showed an empty plate, a fork and a spoon. And the caption,

"No one can survive on a diet of hope."

And I thought it was really true.

Who hasn't lost hope before? Who hasn't gave up on pursuing something that they really wanted? Who hasn't held the hands of their loved ones, knowing it would be his/her last time ever doing so?

Yet, the power and strength of the human spirit is relentless. It never gives up on life, somehow. If there was something it would have to give up on, it would be giving up. For it knows, unconsiously that one day, there shall be light.

Wish that everyone gains back their courage on doing anything, and everything.

What hurts more?

Everyone would probably have experienced the discomfort of seeing someone leave, let alone seeing a loved one leave. Then, too often atimes that we ask ourselves, what went wrong in this whole issue, and ending up with placing the blame on one or more of the 3 parties, yourself, your loved one and external parties. But after all this blame-placing, all that is done is nothing more than the forcing of unhappiness upon oneself, and too many atimes ending up hating the person that you have once laid your head upon.

It is absolutely inevitable for the above to happen, and it is without a doubt true to feel hurt to see your loved ones leave. But what is the point of holding onto a relationship when one party is already not willing to be with the other? Would it not be true that it would hurt significantly more to see your loved ones sad? Someone once said,

"If he/she's meant to be, he/she'll return."

On this merry occasion, I wish for the ability for all to put behind all unhappiness and to walk forth, towards a new place. Though it would be a place of which happiness dwells, but also more reasons to wallow, we should put behind what would be a road of no return, and not look back when a decision has been cast.

Merry Christmas.

Words of the Drunkards.

Yeah, everything said here were the things that we said when we were drunk on 22/12. :)


"I wish I could be perpetually high, of course, excluding the hangover." - Melvin

"You don't have to keep too many parallel universes, sometimes man keep so much parallel universes, they don't even recognise who they really are." -Marvin


Think its really an irony, like people can start talking about such stuff in such... a drunken stage. But I believe that although alcohol is a liberation, it is nothing more than a temporary suppresser. It liberates the mind, freeing it from the problems temporarily.

Drinking is the pancea to all ailments.

Yeah, drinking solves alot of things. Like you get high and and drunk, and totally forgotting about all problems that has been on your mind. Everything is forgotten. Everything is... so cool. So... solved. Ya, that feeling entirely lingers SO long, and you feel so at ease. Personally, I love that feeling.

But the next morning, you wake up sober... and figured, you hasn't solved anything at all. So what's the point of drinking if you want to "solve", "forget" (or to push back the problem, in general) problems? You wake up with the problem anyway.

In the midst of a drunken stupor (longest coherent post, in the most incoherent stage)

Drinking at Marv's place now, so many people around, but now left shawn, mel, chin wee, marv, nicholas and me. Apparently after like 2-3 hours of drinking, I'm not too... awake. But that also means that emotions are relatively easier to be expressed.
Well, spent sometime on Wednesday decorating marv's place, and doing a card, for Thursday. Well, eventually Thursday came, (like duh. =\) and met Jennifer at Westmall, intending to buy her a cheesecake (Coffee Bean Triple Decker), but hmmm, they didn't have it now, like its the Christmas season and they sold out their cheesecake already. Well, that's something you don't exactly want to hear when you kinda planned everything, like expecting they would honour their promise of having a cake on their website. But ya, I didn't take into consideration that at festive seasons they do change their main menu, like fine, I'm dumb. So, having no Plan B in mind, ya, got pretty pissed and stuff, probably at nothing or no one, but myself. Like, I didn't think of alternatives. So we got to school to get her milk tea, but before we went in, well, she wanted to look for a book. So well, aight. Later met YC and talked and stuff, then Jennifer said she was going to meet Evern, well, so she left and I went to get some suppressers. (apparently they dont last too long)
Well, BA_Comm meeting was great, like everthing went well generally, and went to Yuki Yaki for dinner. Pretty nice, the sambal was great. hahas. :)
Went to buy Absoult Vodka and Jack Daniels, and wanted to get some medicine for hangovers, if anyone might need. Then splitting way with Jennifer Cheryl and Queen, Marv went and stopped Queen and Cheryl, so I could have a chance to pass Jennifer a card that I was doing the previous day. Well, thought everything ended that way. Messaged Jennifer and stuff, but she didn't reply, thought the message wasn't too reply-able. Well, perfectly fine. Then realised that her phone was off, but well, all is fine. :)
And so I thought.
I'm really not trying to force a decision, all I wanted was to explain what I feel. Its nothing that I am pissed about and stuff, if I am pissed at the slightest point... it would be at myself. That's what I really feel. If there is anything to amend this situation, or actually to make anyone, who happen to be affected by this matter, feel better, I probably won't mind doing it. Apparently things didn't... exactly went the way it should have. But I guess, sometimes in life, its absolutely inevitable that things would be mis-interpreted. All I hope is that, you understand what exactly I'm trying to say today and in this post, and well, in your words, "not to sink".

Sidenote: Chin Wee is drunk, and he's crazy over the 5-10 game. Puked and stuff, after drinking like... 2 cups of VSOP Neat? Gee, he's downright... mad. Well, maybe he's happy being high. Well, thought I could be really high and drunk and everything, then thought of that fateful day that I figured that... Drinking ain't a solution... to anything. Which I'll explain in the next post.

One Dollar for 3 Tries?

Studied in school, and then went to market for dinner. Well, dinner was so interesting, in the sense that I had never wanted to eat Hokkien Mee, because I felt it wasn't really good or to be compared with the one opposite my house. But for some weird reason, I wanted to give it a try. Give it a chance, and hope it would be better this time.

Often people know what they dislike, not exactly those extreme kind, but one of which they try to not choose. But with some weird occurence, they tend to have a

"Nvm lah, I'll just give it a try. Hope it won't disappoint me this time, or I'll never try again."

logic. And when its really better, they are elated and well, they do it again. Which in this case, isn't anything too unpleasant or what.
But when it disappoints them once again, they are rather unhappy, not with the hawker, but with themselves, in the sense why did they even give it a chance in the first place. Of course, the dissatisfaction of the food plays a part too.

Everytime I'm facing something that I know I won't like, or would prefer not to have, it is proven by results that I'll give it another shot. The exact same way that everything happens.

Are you being what you want to be?

Have you ever thought about your future partner, and looked at your pitiful life?
Or thought about life and realised that, life isn't what you think actually?
Something that you've neem living, a life that you've been in... isn't actually one that is necessary for your life eventually?

One what isn't really going tocontribute to your end point? Or even, where is your end-point?
Is it.... somewhere you'll die in? The bed you'll die on? The woman you'll die with? The age of which you're dead? Or even... the job, the salary, the luxury or poverty you are having at the point of your death?
Does it really link with what you are doing now? What you are living as now?
Is it... linked at the slightest sense?

Ever had an ambition that was never fulfilled? A goal that was never met? A gril whom you liked and never had the chance to talk to...? Does it really... matter to you?

A slient prayer, for you.

"The grass is so f******* greener on the other side."
-A simple, yet direct example of life being relative.
The statement clearly shows that comparing is just part and parcel of life.


QN: So, how do you know if the grass is really greener on the other side?

My ANS: After looking at the grass you've stepped on once, and comparing it to the one you have made up your mind to move towards.

What is time? (random thoughts about Marvin's time post.)

Disclaimer: Before reading, do you know what is time? Like, can you define exactly or at least, explain to a 5-year-old kid? Anyway, enjoy. :)

After reading Marvin's post, I was just... wondering.

So what exactly is time? Most probably the first thought would be the measure of things passing or like, you'll just think that you know, yet to realise that you can't exactly explain because time is just time, something explained by your seniors and you just remember that time is the thing that is told by the SG$2,400 Tag Heuer bracelet on your left wrist.

1. Definition
Explained by Dictionary.com, Time is;
1. "A nonspatial continuum in which events occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future."
-Very true, it is just.. irreversible and often let past without much notice nor concern.

2. "A similar number representing a specific point on this continuum, reckoned in hours and minutes."
Well well, is time... that simple?

3. "An interval separating two points on this continuum; a duration."
A duration, interval in which things occur? Like events?


2. Time tells the future.
Bullshit? Haven't you heard of people saying, "Time will tell." Be it capability, love issues, or even, wounds, time will tell the extent of it.

"Time will tell how capable you are. Just give yourself sometime and prove yourself when you get it!"

"Well, not sure if you really are in love with him/her? Time will tell. Trust me!"

"You really need to get over it, and time will help you to heal all these wounds..."
So, don't you agree that time tells the future?

Or maybe, it would be correct to refer such a phenomenon as... deja vu?

3. What is time for?

1. "A system by which such intervals are measured or such numbers are reckoned: solar time. "

a measurement of...? What can time truely measure?

Is time a true measure of happiness?

Or sadness?

It can probably measure the amount of time (interval) that happiness or sadness is in the air, but can it measure the extent or depth of the issue?

Is time a true meansure of love?

"We're going to the ROM now, we've been together for like 7 years!"

Have you not heard this often? Yes, I would agree to a large extent that so many years would give you ample time to evaluate the other party, but is time a true measure of true love? Be it 7 years, 7 months, or even, 7 days, is it sufficient to know if the couple is going to break up or divorce? How many atimes, have you been in a r/s for so long, and being disappointed in the end? Many atimes, man has been raised to such levels of estacy, yet to discover disappointment aplenty. Would one live happier if he/she has just remained being ... constantly unhappy (of a constant amount, not flacutating)? What do you think?

Ending off this whole post (which probably would be just another utter random ramble once again)... just another question for you to ponder when you're doing nothing, when you're on the bus, or maybe, waiting for that someone special to reply a message...

What exactly is time... to you?

Thanks to Dictionary.com for the explanations.

CIP 2

Another CIP post here.

Learnt flash and Dreamweaver recently, from the lecture and some friends. I'm really so happy that I've learnt how to use Flash and Dreamweaver!

After watching some Flash at various websites, and a poster that day, I've more or less figured out what to do for my Flash! :)

Stay tuned!

The poster. :)













Thanks to CLEAR CHANNEL.

The locus of control.

Translated by Mi Juan (Thanks!)














Sometimes, its really just impossible to know where one is heading, feeling, or even, doing to a great extent.

What is relativity? Albert Einstein's Law of Relativity? (for some peculiar reasons, I cannot seem to find the theory. Please inform me if you do? :))

Ok, relativity is "a state of dependence in which the existence or significance of one entity is solely dependent on that of another" as explained by Dictionary.com.

So would it be technically correct, to deem grades to be relative? How about wealth? Health?

Where does Happiness fall into then?

The Replacement Killers

Killers are meant to kill. So what happens, when they fail to do so, and get killed instead?
The boss finds other killers. Replacement killers.

The oh-so-common love story.

The school belle. The prom queen. Guys queue to get her number. The girl everyone wants to know, wants to be.
But despite all this fame and glamour, she thought of no one, except the one that she once loved.
One, that she most admired.
One, whom took her breath away.
One, who loved her probably more than anyone would, for he loves her for her.

But he was poor. She ain't.

They were together on one fine Sunday, at the beach, enjoying the breeze. Enjoying the company. Everything that didn't seem to be pleasing, didn't make any difference. It was probably, paradise.

Then, he suddenly held her tight, and said, "If this is going to be the last time I'm going to see you, what would you say to me?"

She was taken aback. The ever happy boy, the smile that the boy has never seem to lack... revealed a drop of tear. A hot drop of tear that landed on her tanned shoulder.

She said, "Come on, stop joking. You're scaring me."

He held her tighter for a while, then released his grip. He smiled, and joked, "Haha, you got punk'd!" Even so, there were still the tear trails.