A beautiful song.

"Bic Runga - Sway"

Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you

And here I go losing my control
I'm practicing your name, so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in your eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way ,yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure and no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired, I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart, my logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon

Say you'll stay don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way ,yeah I need to know
All about you (x2)

It's all because of you (x2)

Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way ,yeah I need to know
All about you (x2)

It's all because of you (x2)

CIP 6

PBL 1 Report! DONE!
PBL 2 Questions! DONE!

For PBL 2, after the latest meeting, we'll be finishing it pretty soon! :)

have you?

Have you ever...

- reached home alone?
- gone crazy over someone?
- loved someone who won't ever love you?
- seen your loved one(s) tear yet to be unable to dap their tears away?
- stayed up late so you can sleep when your brain starts to think?
- been so dependant on someone?
- wondered who you really are?
- lived a life that wasn't yours?
- wished you were never alive?

"Body asked then heart, "If I am sick, I can go to the doctor. What about you?"
The heart answered, "I will look for ways to heal myself. (Even if they do not work.)"
Adapted from Marvin's quote of a show.

Too many atimes, too many, that it became the new black. It won't even be deemed... wrong in any aspect.

CIP 5

PBL1 report! Not done!
PBl 2 ! NOT DONE!

NO!!!!! :(

踏破铁鞋无觅处，得来全不费功夫。

The phrase can be translated literally into english, as

"After searching for so long that even your metal shoes are worn out, you can't seem to find it. Yet when it appears, it is unexpected and you didn't even try in the first place."

I'm sure many of you who might be reading this have this experience (including me, definitely), of trying so hard to find something/someone (usually someone for this case), to find only disappointment aplenty at the end of the day. It just sucks, when you tried to hard, yet to fail. (the way people tell you that you'll be able to get something if you try hard enough.)
And even if you seem to find that someone, you realise that you two couldn't exactly last. Well, I guess that falls under failure too.

Yet this phrase solves the whole issue, with a simple 4-letter word beginning with "F". Well, definitely not "fuck", but "fate". To seek someone so hard futile-ly, and to find the perfect one when you don't seek at all. Leave it to fate, for it is often said to let nature take its course. Never a guarantee, but why "force" it?


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CONCLUSION(you might want to skip this): With that, I hope you guys understand that sometimes, life crashes so fuckin' hard down into our lifes, that everything (seems)* to go wrong, entirely haywire. Its like life's telling you, "You got punk'd!" But inevitably, life's gotta go on, with everything being wrong. Well, then chill from all the heat, and take things slow, take it as it is. Like this;-
.Missed your bus? Smile. You never know who you're going to meet on the next bus.
.Shop that you want to buy from is not open? Relax, you never know if there's going to be a discount on the next working day for that item.
Cause' you never know when life's gonna stop being such a bitch, and all would be fine. I know it might just seem so bullshity, like I'm just flappin' my lips at such irritating, f'ked up yet uncontrollable issues with solutions that seem to just spell "ignore-the-issue, and-be-happy-being-pissed-at".
Well, that is just so true, but I'm not just ignoring the issue, I'm past the stage of being pissed, I'm looking at the greener grass.
I'm not being happy at being pissed at, I don't any point being sad/angry, cause' I really don't see how it can help me getting past this stage.
Sometimes, you just got to let things pass, there's no point in being too caught up with things, that doesn't really matter at the end of the day.
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Yeah?

*because most of the times, it really seems that everything is REALLY wrong!

(Author's note: I have totally no idea why I can't type chinese in here, but well, heck it. The above phrase, (credits to Mi Juan) was the correct version as what my mom said. Marvin, yeah. I don't know. I'll check the dictionary.)

What do you want?

Well, I believe there are loads of times that you start questioning someone, (probably God, a higher being, or even, sky/stars.) why life is such an irritating procedure.

Like why you can't have something that you want? Why can't that someone, just give that to you?

But if you gave it a thought, do you know what you want to be given? Probably when you know what you want, what you are headed for, and why you want it, everything would be so much simpler for that someone to give.

So why not start thinking what exactly do you want actually?

Author's note: Guess this whole while I've not exactly sure of what I want, so I guess even if the Higher Being wants to give me something for my birthday, he/she/it can't, cause he/she/it doesn't even know what I want, right? Like how to buy a present for a stranger? So, that's what I think and I guess having a goal in mind and moving towards it would be better and at least, you know where're you're at and how much you've progressed.

2005, Thanks for everything. It had been an eventful year, one that really changed me. (CJ, NP, friends, Marvin, Judette, everyone. Thanks.)

2006, welcome.