alex.... happy. =)

I only wish that this could be
Just dump your boyfriend and go out with me
I swear I'd treat you like a queen. A queen.

if it's really what he sent you, i guess i'm not sad or anything. i only have myself to blame; thinking for others even if i know it's dumb. to think that all this time i did things with him in mind, heh, and this is what he does. oh well, sucks right?

but it's okay. i think it's really okay, because that's me. being stupid and thinking that he's being a saint to help others, making the world a happier place. heh. who's gonna think for him?

his friends. sorry friends, for always being in trouble that you guys have to pull me out. but it's okay, because he know that what he did, he has no regrets and most importantly, he knows it's him, and even if it hurts him so...

he's still happy being himself.

the alex who talks to a million and one girls and gets so jaded about love.
the alex who knows that he has his great friends always there for him.
the alex who smiles because he's simply happy every single moment.
the alex, with others who are comfortable to be with him..

the alex you all knew. :) i'm back. just give me some time to adapt.

smiles.

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

thanks. :)

welcome. :)

okay. :)

sure. :)

np~ :)

hey! :)

or simply,

:)

How many of this cases have you seen? :) that people simply end off every other sentence with a smiley. :) well, i'm sure that they're really happy. heh. :D

but how many times have you done that and realised that you're just hiding behind that smiley? haha. yet another paradox. :)

have you forgotten?

sometimes when we get so caught up in life, have you neglected a tiny voice in your head that tells you that "hey, maybe it's time to catch up with -insertname-."

or more so that, sometimes it just takes away one's mind and conscious.

to be so caught up with material goods, that one forgets that the opportunity cost of that, could be something that cannot be replaced or re-lived.

some moments in life you never wished you remembered.
some moments in life you never wanted it to go that way.
some moments in life you wished that you never had.

some moments, you wished you had.
for everything wise, there's Mastercard.

What's you choice? Moments you wished you had, or Mastercard to "have" it all?

I choose the moments. Impractical? So be it. It's something money can't buy. The one that you could get off the shelf, ain't what you really want at the end of the day. :)

For now, I just want to take things easy, sit back and take a good look at the world, holding her hand and looking at the stars.

things.

Money, social status, material goods, loved ones.

Humans live by taking things from others, and having others taking things from them.
It's okay if the thing taken away is money, after all it's something that can be earned back; but when feelings are involved, it's never that simple.

So cherish what you have now; I will.

someone trying to be someone someone's not

"you're a poseur/poser."
"you're not like him, so don't just such a fake-o idiot."
"you can never be like him; don't try."
"give it up, or die trying"

how many a time have you heard someone telling you not to be someone that you're not? well, i have. and it's not nice.

it's like you see a need in a change in yourself, and you're taking that person as a role model; while people are taking you as just a poser.

you know what?

"you're not that person you want to be. but if you believe and work towards it, you'll emerge someone new, maybe even better."

and shut their traps after that. it's not late. :)

the power of 1; the magic of 2.

A speech that I found lying around in my room, with much help of my good friend in Secondary School, Dyana Wu! :)
----

1 is the root of everything and also the primordial* unit of life.
Nothing exists without 1, which makes it so magical.
It is the number of planets that is believed to contain life forms,
and the proton number of Hydrogen; the most abundant element in the galaxy.

1 being the basic counting number, is infinity.
If you take a square, and continuing adding sides to it,
it will eventually become 1 circle, with infinite sides,
rightfully so.

1 symbolises the individuality of a human's conscious self;
the idea that there is only 1 of a person; and the consciousness shall remain.
If the meaning of life is a number,
the number is 1.
----

Underestimate not the power of 1,
and believe in the magic that 2 can call forth.
Nothing exists without 1,
but nothing's meaningful without 2.

I <3 you :)


*existing at/since the beginning of a world/universe

Compromising; dead weight loss?

Compromise; to make a dishonorable or shameful concession.

Does that mean every single time that you give in during an arguement or when there are varying views, you are actually losing out; by making a shameful concession?

Compromise, simply put, can be said to give in during a certain point where the heat is strong. Of course, the point-in-case here is to have a reasonable concession, it wouldn't change much if it's simply taking all the "bullets" from the other party.

Compromising comes with sacrificing one's stand, and definitely more than that.

During the course of thinking how much you have lost by compromising, have we forgotten the magic that it brings?

Compromising is the key factor of sustaining a relationship; of all sorts. Be it between friends, kins, the beloved one. Sometimes when people aren't feeling too good, or when they are simply bent on some things, or when.... ack. you know what i'm referring to.

Look at the bigger picture, is it really necessary for you to be so bent on the issue? It sucks to always be the one giving in, or rather, the suckiness comes from losing out. But have you simply chucked aside the beauty of being understanding?

Ego is not everything; but most of the time, the relationship is.

When you've realised that compromising is NOT about what you have lost, but what you have GAINED; you have already gained back what you have lost.

someone; in need.

Oh, Mahli wants tell her so
and not hiding in his own shadow
to be hurt and quiet and who knows, and you think he's okay-yo.

And he tells himself to be strong
"you are stronger than you think so"
dont be weak and stray along those roads you took once before.

I remember feeling low
and I remember losing hope
and I remember all the things he said he couldn't take.

We are, we are all innocent
we are all innocent, we are, we are all.
We are, we are all innocent
we are all innocent, we are, we are all.

Oh, and Constance's grabbing on to what she knows
what she wants and what she owns
and as he thinks about her soul and all the things she said before.

And while she wants to know about him,
like what he feels and how he thinks,
cause' he stands so tall but you know, he's crum-bl-ing within.

I remember feeling low
and I remember losing hope
and I remember all the times he just sat down and cried.

We are, we are all innocent
we are all innocent, we are, we are all.
We are, we are all innocent
we are all innocent, we are, we are all.

One day, he hopes she understands
that he's not superman like what you think he is
One day, he hopes she understands
that there are times he's oh-so-weak and need you there
Remember losing hope?
Remember feeling low?
Remember who was there right there till the sun don't glow?

We are, we are all human
we all need some concern, we all, we all
We are, we are all human
we all need some concern, we all, we all
We are, we are all human (we love, to act like someone else)
we all need some concern, we all, we all (and put on one strong front, oooo)
We are, we are all human (he's not, as strong as what you think)
we all need some concern, we all, we all (and after all he's just a kid with a dream)

We are, we are all innocent.

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My friend, you're not superman.
There are things that you can't take, and are times that you feel so weak and wished she was there; but she's not.
Don't feel so bad, it's okay to feel weak; especially at a time like that.
All the concern that you need, though she might be busy with her stuff,
you know she loves you so; and hope that she'll understand one day.
after all, she probably needs time too.

You need to understand
There's nothing strange about this
Maybe you just need a friend,
as clumsy as you've been.

Take care, my friend.

what's in a relationship?

a relationship, defined by Dictionary.com is:-

"A particular type of connection existing between people related to or having dealings with each other."

any form of relationship; between friends, kins, loved ones and even your enemies.

it is a form of connection that exists between people, and also about living with the person, someone who is definitely different from you. Different from thoughts, perspectives, attitude, tolerance level and so on.

With such differences, there are bound to be friction. Friction among the two, problems that will arise eventually.

It's not about who's fault is it; it's about somebody giving in.
It's not about who should give in; it's about what magic it will bring.

It's about understanding each other. When one is not in good spirits, one is bound to act/speak/act differently, usually less sensitive and/or less irrationally. Who have not committed such a behaviour? I admit to it personally, and I dare say no one is not guilty of it. But it's not about pointing fingers, it's about understanding that things happen at times, and it's about forgiving each other at the end of the day.

We are all human; we err too.

But the crux is to forgive, then forget.