can you hear that heartbeat?!

"Hush," he said.

"Listen. Listen carefully to what's happening around you," as he cups his hand around his ear.

"Can you hear that heartbeat? It doesn't go "lup dup lup dup". Can you hear it? EBEN! EBEN!", raising his hands as though to call forth a flurry of lightning.

"These brave knights; their hearts beat as one. Their veins flow not with blood, but with energy that makes them one!"

He walked closer to the enemy and held him closer by his neck, "Deny us of what we are and you deny us of our existence. When all that we have... is nothing, what do we have to lose, my friend?"

"An Eben is a true Eben when he choses to be, not by what is bestowed upon him. When you choose to act as though you own his life... beware of the thunderstorms," as he pushes that wretched pile back into his delusional state.

难了情

sew this up with threads of reason and regret,
as much as i wanna forget.
time heals all wounds...
on the surface.

the time runs out my window
when he drives you in a two by four
i know you're happy now
and that's what i said really matters anyway

time lost is not revocable,
time crying is not comfortable,
time now is not anywhere better,
and time spent is not forgotten, still

you're a miss,
i can't be your prince,
just wanted you to know,
that you're the best damn thing that my eyes have ever seen.

nothing sowed, nothing reaped.
nothing lost, nothing learned.
who wants to go through shit?
well,

it depends who/what it's for.

just so that you'd know (not that you want to anyway i guess)

when you said you'd leave
i was loss for words
and i wrote all i felt in a piece of paper
the one in your hand

no, no.
what's that i see in my closet
it's the letter that i wrote
that never got out of its shelf.

to me it meant everything
but to you prolly you dint want to know
so just wanted you to know
that its worth as much as the monogram world of a colorblind.

everyday romeos (i dont even know why)

on the telephone line
i can be anyone - a supermodel, a space invader
or even
a romeo with a bleeding heart.

in reality, i dont know what i'd do
maybe i'd slip out the back before you knew i was there
at the worst you'd just not care,
cause in our hearts we know that everyone's afraid
esp. in the heart of romeo that can never be pieced back perfectly.

you know,
fuck what i did, it didn't mean jack.
cause the path treaded is so bent,
give me some breath, some breathing room
for the sake for sounding even conscious.

this ain't an emo poem for the loveless,
it ain't even comprehendable.
just a page for the hopeless and the damned,
should there be a day of love,
let's all jump and hope we don't fall to our deaths.

send someone to love me,
keep me save from harm, the rain, or getting old before my time
so my soul can heal the pain and hide this shame
so before i'm charged guilty,
give me a chance to be a better man.

this is a song about a girl who dumped me,
on my big fat ass.
they dint know about it, they said.
but these smart bastards,
they all did.

summer time, i had a crush on you that you found out
keep this a secret
because i cant take it anymore
it hurts, so much,
i dont even understand why.

happy birthday, i never did dare to,
but who cares, does it mean jack to you
but who cares, does it mean shit to us
and this is how we'll all end;
bent and broken one day.

getting over

I think i finally understand how it's like to get over a person.

Will? Unnecessary.

"i WILL make it!"
"i WILL pass my test!"
"i WILL win this time!"

Stop using WILL and reminding yourself that you can't. Why?

When you say "i WILL", aren't you reminding yourself that you've tried that previously and failed, or simply can't do it, that's why you need a resolve to motivate yourself?

Seriously, JUST DO IT. jfdi. =)