fear.

everybody's running from something
but they don't know when it's coming
so they keep running and running.

the smile.

do you remember when?
how long has it been?
nineteen forty five,
you opened my blue eyes,
to see a whole new life,
do you remember when?

"i don't need you by my side"
you told me this that night,
it was when it all began,
i'll never fall for you again.
i made a promise when,
you told me this that night.

i'll be fine.

do you remember when?
how long has it been?
since the day has past,
i've fell for you again,
it was when it all began,
do you remember when?

oblivion never shows,
like the drunkard never goes.
and every time you cry,
death creeps in more inside.
i broke my promise when,
i said "i'll just be fine".

but i'll be fine.

do you remember when?
how long has it been?
a year has past so fast,
we've met here once again.
all the times we shared,
will you remember then?

it wasn't "hi"s and "bye"s,
it was heartfelt in my eyes.
the love that we once shared,
i looked for it again.
the greatest love is when,
you leave it all behind...

... ain't it right?

cause when i die,
then i die, loving you.
it's alright, i'll be fine.
cause when i die,
then i die, loving you.
Lovin' you...

lovin' you.

if tears meant a fuck.

that was when,
we used to lay our bodies,
and bear our souls,
talking till the sun don't shine.

that was when,
luxurious late night snacks,
wee hour breakfasts,
were the decent meals we had.

that was when,
people would poison minds,
just to make them shine,
but we'll ask them to grow up.

that was when,
the whole world could crash into us,
just to teach us that we're human,
but nothing really mattered to us.

that was when,
if you ever asked,
i'll show you my love,
any day, any time, any where.

that was when,
i took my last breath.
a fall that seemed like forever,
bon voyage.

the phone never rings when you worry about things.

how amusing, you can add a happy smiley face or a sad one after the title.

haha.

with a happy smiley, it provides strength and hope to not brood about things,
while a sad smiley amplifies the depression within.

if tears could change things.

because the sight of it blinds,
the sound deafens,
the thought burns.

because there's nothing you can do,
there's nothing you can change,
while it simply eats you away.

because it's hard to hold your stand,
when you don't know where's your land,
your heart and your men.

because it's harder when your lover's gone,
there's no one left to blame,
and no one to share the shame.

because you've jumped into the river,
too many times to make it home,
when you needed time all alone.

because there's too much to forget,
there's so much of you,
that i can never detach.

because we ain't got concrete hearts;
when a heart breaks,
it doesn't break even.

in this cold november rain,
maybe you need some time,
maybe you just need some time... all alone.

can you take the truth,
and stare it in the eye.
because i think, i still can't.

the birthday!

well, so this little boy ended up doing almost all the taboos (okay, maybe not that serious) of birthdays...

- deciding where to eat for his birthday (and had macs for his birthday)
- chose his own cake (the last cake he probably would have chosen for anyone els)
- not getting drunk at a club (but getting assaulted by his friend)
- accidentally walking into the surprise of the birthday (which is still being prepared)
- cutting his own birthday cake (and distributing it)

hmmm. don't you think it's too much of a coincidence of it happening? =D

hahahahahah.

happy 30th birthday anywayys. hugs.

auld lang syne.

And you were meant to know,
just how much I loved you so.
With the time that passed us by,
where were the good times?

Cause every thing you do,
and every move you make,
still takes my breath away,
till this very day.

But it's time to say goodbye,
and we'll put this all behind.
Cause' there's nothing left to say,
nothing... left to say.

chicken or egg?

should it be the issue of the chicken or the egg...

or should we solve the problem of "how do we cook this egg?"

cause' there's no destiny if everyone's your enemy

bleh. suckkkkks! =@

screw youuuu.